Thursday, October 27, 2011

Life Updates

Life's been pretty down knowing all the public accounting firms that I've applied to declined me. Everywhere I go, I hear people talking about all the firms that they've been accepted to and it is hard to choose. I just cover my ears and continue walking. But today was a good day. :)

Today marks the first day to snow this year! October 27. So early.
I also joined the Beta Alpha Psi to carve pumpkins with Big Brothers and Big Sisters ^_^ Finally done something I enjoy... It's been a while. Here's a collage.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

When Will My Life Take a Turning Point...?

Sorry about all these emo posts... Well, all my posts have been emo. If anyone is actually reading this. I remember when I used to blog on Xanga. All my posts there were all emo too. It was just me talking about my everyday life. Same thing happens everyday.

I've been trying really hard to do something about it, but I'm never given the chance to suceed... This semester, I know I need a job because I'm graduating. I attend all the events that accounting firms hold. I network as much as I can. I've met a lot of new people and learned a lot of new things. I even popped out of another barrier that I've created on myself by doing the xAct case study competition. Job itself has contributed the most stress I've had this semester... How far do I have to reach to get what I want... Or need... I've done all that I could ever do. My mom's friend told me that in China, they have a saying, "If it's yours, it's yours." She told me not to worry because the economy is still bad. On the other side, some people look down on me because I still have some crappy job even after attending college.

Does my past have to affect my present? Just because my G.P.A. cannot compete with 95% of the students in the school of management, I can't provide quality in work as good as the others do...? I don't believe that I cannot get a job because the economy is bad. I don't get a job because the employers don't see success in me judging by my resume. I'm not a good enough candidate for them because my grades are bad and I don't have leadership roles in school clubs.

Besides jobs, there's school. Although I'm overwhelmed by school work, it's not affecting me as much as this job crap has been because I know I have more important things to worry about. I'm sorry, Victoria. I haven't had much time to call you or write to you.

What should I do if I complete college without a job...? I was watching YouTube for a little bit and I notice all these Asians on the top subscribed users list and I wondered... Why can't I do something to make a difference? My roommate told me there are three kinds of people. Those that wants to do something and do it. Those that wants to do something but hesitant at taking initiative. And those that wants to do something but don't take any step further. I'm the one that is hesitant at taking initiative. Sophomore year, I wanted to start an Asians Arts & Craft club. Junior year, I brought it up again. Summer, I brought it up again. Never happened.

When will that day come when my life takes a turning point? I'm tired of feeling down every two days...

Happiest day of my life.

Fruit Ninja

Even more fun on an XBox 360 Kinet! :]

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Employers

How do they know you're a bad candidate and just get declined base on your resume if you haven't gotten a chance to present yourself?

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Happy Birthday!

Now I understand what my mom mean. After 21, birthdays just feel like any other ordinary day lol. Though I had fun with her

Friday, October 7, 2011

Team Presentations

If one man sinks, the whole crew sinks.

Thankfully, that was not me, but I had a lot of fun doing the PwC xAct competition! I just wished that it was not part of my most busiest time of the semester with job applications, interview, mid-term, and loaded with homework.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Never Seen So Many Fucking Dumb People in My Life in One Day...

I've been doing a PwC xAct Competition recently. I don't like being a leader, but when I'm in groups, I like doing things my way. I'm already busy all day and I volunteered to make the presentation script by myself. I have no rights to complain about that but this one partner haven't done a single fucking thing all two weeks. This morning, he texted me asking if I can send him the revised copy. The only portion that needed revision was his part... Although I typed out the whole script myself, my three other group members helps so much. They helped with all the planning, what to say, and did everything as a group. The one person that didn't do anything for the group was always the first one leaving when we meet up. He says he has to go study, but he's really going back to his room to play games (because we're in the same residential hall). It really fucking pissed me off when he texted me this morning. I wanted to tell him to go do it himself. He hasn't done a single thing for the group.

Just when that's over, the guy at the food store couldn't be anymore dumb. If you don't know how to make the sub, then ask someone who knows! He made my sub completely wrong. Used pork when I clearly asked for chicken. He didn't know how to use the oven, so he put my sub aside and made the next person's sub before asking for help to use the oven. I wanted to punch him in the face so bad. My life doesn't revolve around you. Time is money. I don't have all day to wait for you to make my dinner. A simple 3minute sub took him 15minutes.

It's 9:50pm. I've been studying and in class all day. I took an exam at 6pm. All I want is a peaceful night to study for my exam tomorrow and prepare for my interview on Thursday. Why can't people smarten up and do things right?