I'm Sorry

Confession. Recently, I accused a friend of lying because I jumped to conclusion without trying to understand the real story behind it. She got upset and just cut me off. Then I realized... I've been a jerk these past few years, huh...

I didn't really noticed that I was treating my close friends so bad in the past that I just cloud my head with thoughts that I'm always the right one and they're always wrong. I tell myself that I am a good person and I would never hurt anyone's feelings.

I think I lost a few of my close friends because of my attitude and judgmental habits. I finally realized that I'm not as good of a person as I thought I'd be. You know, I'm always trying my best to take it so as long as they are happy, I'm happy too. I always try to put others ahead of me and satisfy them because I don't want any conflicts between us. But in reality, I think I'm hurting more people than I'm trying to be good.

I felt so bad last night for accusing my friend of lying. I prayed before I went to sleep and I think God has shown me the answer. Today after work while I was at the gym, I was just thinking of all the horrible stuff that I have said to my friends; close or not close. After I ate dinner, I sent a few of my friends messages apologizing for what I have said to the past to them. Whether they took it offensively or didn't care what I've said, I knew it was something I should not have said.

I was to slowly improve myself as a person and as a friend to be more careful with what I say, what I assume, and what I do. I want to get rid of my old habits and be a person that I want to be.

To all those that I have treated poorly in the past, I am sorry for the things that I've done. I hope you find it in the hearts to forgive me. :)

Happy Father's Day

I started my day by spending time with Heavenly Father and Lord Jesus. (: I went to church and we talked about the greatness of our fathers. It got my thinking again.

I would like to thank my father for bringing me to this world. If it wasn't for him, I wouldn't be here today. I would like to thank him for giving me such a wonderful mom; caring and sweet. Although he wasn't there most of my life, I still really love him and misses him. If he was still here, I would give it all to spend the day with him and make him the happiest person alive. When I browsed through Facebook, it bothered me. I just wish people really told their daddy Happy Father's Day instead of just posting on Facebook to let everyone else see. Facebook is not your dad. Go to him and tell him Happy Father's Day. Make him breakfast. Treat him to lunch/dinner. Spend the day with him. If they're busy working, give him a call.

I prayed for my father and told him how much I love him and how grateful I am to be here in this world. I hope he's happy where ever he is.

I was kicked out of the house again because auntie was having open house again, so I went to Ikea and met up with Eva. Her dad had work today, so they're doing a dinner for her dad tomorrow. I ended up going to her house to visit her new dog, Taro. :3 Sooo cute~ I really want a puppy too! Too bad... I have to wait until I move. But that's okay! I'm getting closer to that point after each paycheck!

I wish every father in this world a Happy Father's Day! (:

Going Beyond and More?

For the longest time after I graduated and got a job, I felt like there is no more motivation to excel higher in life. I was satisfied with that I have in my life. I graduated, I have a car, I have a job, and I'm not shit poor anymore. I was kind of depressed about no motivation to do anything. I tried but my mind set was just stuck at the position where I really don't want anything else.

But recently, I felt a sudden push; an urge! << Lmao, sounds so lame. But yeah... My cousin got a free guinea pig and he didn't want to keep it. He offered to give it to me, but auntie won't let me bring it back. ._. Not only that, but I want a puppy too! And as long as I live with her, I can't get any furries! On top of this, my mom has been really bothersome to get me to look into buying a house soon because the housing market is recovering and the growth rate is REALLY fast right now. & sometimes, my auntie gets really annoying about certain things.

So I finally get this urge that I want to get my own house... How am I gonna do it?

I've been doing extensive reading on stock market.

I want to pick up a new skill.

Get a 2nd job?

Get back to making YouTube videos?

Anything for money!

And I want the 2014 Toyota Corolla. (:

Money is everything!

Couldn't Have Asked for Better Friends

This weekend has been AWESOME! ^_^

Friday night, I went to Unkei's house and just hung out all night until 4am with a bunch of friends playing Monopoly, watching movies, having oysters, and just chat our night away.

Saturday, I got to finally meet up with Amanda and Cathy from LLIC. I haven't anyone since last summer and it's great to do some catching up. We're all having a great life and everything's great! After I drove them back, I headed for Baldwin's Birthday party. It was one hell of a night. His family is nice. :)

I just got home and took a shower. Church at 9am and who knows... Maybe I'll reserve some time for myself or maybe some plans will come up. If anything, it will be a good life.

I just looked back at my Xanga for a bit and boy was I negative back in the days. I was always looking at the bad side of life and only blog when I had something to rant about. I guess it's the stages of life. Today, I either have a boring day or I a wonderful day. I think my stress days are over, until maybe when my mom wants me to go back for graduate school. For now, I'm in my mid 20s having the life of my dream~ :] Could use a little spicing up, but I'm satisfy with what I have now. It's so much more enjoyable to blog about my happy life than to rant about having a shitty life.

Thinking back, I think I'm more of an independent and carefree person. Taking this weekend for example, I was enjoying the time of my life without a care in a world of what will happen the next day. For a bit, I'm glad I am single. I don't have to worry about oh, my girlfriend couldn't make it, so my experience is gonna be shitty. I don't have to think about it and I don't have to make sure a SO is having fun or worry about if she gets upset at something or whatnot. Being single is not the end of the world and I think I'd prefer being single over having to worry about a SO. Until the day I meet someone that matches my personality of being carefree and independent, I'm just going to enjoy each day without the care of what will happen tomorrow.

Thank you Lord for giving me such a wonderful life and giving me all these wonderful friends to be part of my life. Until next time, peace~! ^_^

Productive Day~ ^_^

Woke up almost late to church, but I made it to Chinatown by 9:12 for church at 9:15. :)

I came home feeling lazy and laying around. This kind of weather (97 degrees) is perfect for a day of just being lazy, but I really wanted to clean out my car. Uncle taught me how to change my oil by changing my oil so I tried changing Susanna's oil. :D Success! From now on, I can change my own car oil! Such a simple process that we usually pay $30~$40 to have someone else do it...

After changing my oil, I completely cleaned out from inside to outside of my car. I vacuumed the floor, cleaned the seats, wiped down the inside, scrubbed the outside of my car, and hosed it down. During this process, I realized how many door scratches I have on my car... I need to start parking far far away from other people... So unethical! :T My car used to look nice! Now when I look closely, there's so many scratches!

After cleaning up my car, Susanna and her boyfriend decided to open up the pool, so I jumped in too. It was nice although it was filled with pollen.

Ended the night with a nice hot shower, and dinner while watching Family Guy. :3 Oh the life.

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